Unhappy

Over the past week or two I have faced some circumstances with people here and there who have made me feel unworthy of breath. I know I shouldn't feel this way but I do. I have had a very low self esteem for my entire life due to the experiences I've had with other people. I thought that as an adult, they would stop. But they haven't. I know that God loves me and that should be enough. I want it to be enough but somehow the thoughts and feelings of others are clouding my vision of Him. Please pray that I stop feeling like garbage. At this point, I am wondering if they all can't be wrong.

You know, Marilyn, giving it all up to God isn't always easy. There are past hurts that I know I should let go of, but here I sit, clinging to them as if they serve any real purpose except to remind me how unworthy those people made me feel.

I'm sorry you're dealing with these troubles again. I hope you know that you are special to me. I wish I had more free time and we could chat, but my life is on hyperoverdrive right now.

I will pray for you and for those people who feel the need to beef themselves up by thinking ill of such a wonderful woman.

Wow Marilyn,
I really wish I lived closer and give whatever person you're talking about a piece of my mind. We all have our faults and we are all imperfect but since I've known you, you are a kind person!

Please don't let those people get the best of you. If you need to chat or advice, I'm just a PM away, I'm here to listen.

Remember this quote from Eleanor Roosevelt: "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."

... and also...

Marilyn, I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. You are the kindest person I know. It makes me so mad that people can be so cruel. Keep your chin up! We love you here. Just ignore those PEOPLE! They are not worth it.

Marilyn You are a Wonderful Person Pay no Attention to those people who make you feel like this i know it is Hard Hang in there Things will get better they never stay the same

My Daddy always told me that when people put you down or do their best to make you feel bad, it is their way of building themselves up. They feel the need to use you as the next step up the ladder of life. I have a person I am dealing with right now who does just that, and I have to keep reminding myself that I am just part of the ladder. I'm getting ready to grease up the step though, and guess where she'll land?! Looking to remedy the problem real quick. You hang in there Marilyn, you are a sweet person and no one can tell me or anyone else different! I am praying for strength for you to stand up to these people and to be able deal with it better.

Thanks everyone. I have really had a bad day. Several months ago I went to my dr and told him that I was depressed. He asked if I was sucidal. I told him that I could never hurt myself but that I wished someone else would. After the dealings I have had recently, I am feeling the same way. I know that God doesn't make junk but right about now, I feel like junk. Please pray for me. Between depression and illness, I am wearing very thin.
I honestly don't know where I would be at this moment without my online friends. I love you all. I really wish that I could zap a few of you here to my corner of the planet so you could face my foe. I guess I'll have to take care of them myself, with your prayer supprt behind me. Thanks so much.

I'll Be Praying

Marilyn, I am so sorry you had to experience that. {{{{HUGS}}}} You are in my prayers.

LIWnut wrote:

At this point, I am wondering if they all can't be wrong.

Yes Marilyn, they ALL CAN be wrong!

Please know that you are a strong and lovely woman, even when you don't feel like it!

Hello, Marilyn.

Sorry to hear that life is so harsh for you, now.

I said a prayer after reading your first post on the subject. I do wish you all the best in feeling better about yourself than you have in your entire life, and that it will always last.


Take care.

Marilyn, I am sorry you feel as you do. I will be prayer that you feel better soon. You might just need to find something to keep you busier. I know you don't have children of your own, but you do have a beautiful niece now. Why not make her a journal that she can someday read. Just some peices of advice from Aunt Marilyn. I've been journaling for my neice, Emily about visits she has with me. I write everything down that we do, things we talk about or add pictures and drawings. She will have it someday and know that I thought she was special and wanted to spend time with her. Emily is 500 miles from me, so these visits are very special.
In this though it has helped me feel that I've done something good and I feel better too.
Keep busy. I know you've had alot of down time with your health and depression can go along with that.
I'm thinking about you and hope that you will have great people in your path daily.
(I'll draw you another picture....!) SMILE! Gin

I had a much better day today. The person in question who has been rocking my world upsidedown was very pleasant today. It was wonderful, the difference between night and day. Thanks you for your prayers. I can only hope it continues on Friday when I go back to work.

LIWnut wrote:

The person in question who has been rocking my world upsidedown was very pleasant today. It was wonderful, the difference between night and day. Thanks you for your prayers. I can only hope it continues on Friday when I go back to work.

Is this happening at work, Marilyn? If so, you need to report him/her to your boss. You could have harassment charges brought up on this person.

I'm glad that you had a much better day today, Marilyn. You are in my thoughts and prayers. {{{hugs}}}

Gin, what a wonderful thing you are doing for your neice.

Susie wrote:

LIWnut wrote:

The person in question who has been rocking my world upsidedown was very pleasant today. It was wonderful, the difference between night and day. Thanks you for your prayers. I can only hope it continues on Friday when I go back to work.

Is this happening at work, Marilyn? If so, you need to report him/her to your boss. You could have harassment charges brought up on this person.

I'm glad that you had a much better day today, Marilyn. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Yea, this lady is my co-worker and her daughter is one of the supervisors. If I say anything about her it wioo all come back to the supervisor and they will all take her side. It's a sticky situation. But God is in control and I gave Him my burden at the beginning of my day today and it was a great day. I have tomorrow off and I am going to enjoy it doing whatever I please. Friday is FRIDAY and so I won't see her again til next Monday. I don't hate her, I don't hate anyone. She is a fellow Christian but I wouldn't treat anyone the way she treats me.
I love you all, immensely! Thanks for your prayers!

Glad to hear that things were brighter for you.

Glad things are better. I have found when someone is treating others this bad they are very unhappy themselves. We all have to be patient. THAT is sometimes very hard-I know! Friday is coming!

I'm glad you had a bettter day yesterday too, Marilyn. I hope today is as well! These are some great inspirational posts (and I love Carol's cat/lion picture), and I can only reiterate everything everyone has said. I'm sorry you're having to deal with this Marilyn, and I'll be praying for you.

Thanks everyone. I had another good day today but am very grateful that it's Friday and don't have to go to work til Monday. Thanks for your prayers. Love to all.

This week I am only working one day, tomorrow. The owner has cut back on all of our hours and so we all have to take turns. I am hoping to get more next week.

This is happening everywhere right now. I'm not even sure Nathan will be able to find a part time job this summer, with so many people needing work right now.
Just remember though...When one door closes another one opens.
Chin up!

Gin wrote:

Just remember though...When one door closes another one opens.
Chin up!

At first I was so depressed about not being treated fairly at work. The girl who this thread was started about has only worked there for about 9 weeks and she is getting 5 days a week, over 8 hours a day, and I have been employed for 9 years and get 6 hrs a week. I was bewildered! But I have a peace that God is in control and that maybe it is time to move on, or do something else in the meantime. God will provide my needs.
I wonder what I am to do with my time. I want to do something meaningful. Please pray that God directs. Thanks.

Gin wrote:

This is happening everywhere right now. I'm not even sure Nathan will be able to find a part time job this summer, with so many people needing work right now.

I worry about the same thing Gin. At least Brendan is out of college earlier than most (third week of April!), so he can get a jump start ahead of a some of the other kids...

Marilyn---I'm sorry about the 'lost' hours. I will continue to pray for you!