Yesterday marks six years of my Mom's passing.

Hello, friends.

It's been six years since I lost my Mom to cancer of the Esophagus. It was 03/30/03 at 2:33am.

Last week was worse than yesterday, and I'm feeling a little better today, but could still use some prayers. I keep thinking of Easter and Mother's Day on the way. Big holidays for us when Mom was living.

I woke up at 2am yesterday morning. When I looked at the clock, I knew that 2:33am would be here quickly, and I wondered how I'd feel.
It was 2:33am when I got the final call from the hosptial six years ago. I thought of that very moment and how I had to call my brother and Gran (that's what I call my grandmother) to tell them we had to hurry over. I also recalled my brother driving us over, and us all getting inside the hospital and being stopped at the nurses desk and told that Mom had already gone. Those thoughts made me sad, and my eyes watered, but I didn't cry. I stayed awake and watched TV until after 4:30am, and then went back to sleep. When typing about this to a friend, I had to stop because I was starting to cry. At the moment, I don't feel like crying. I think this is a good thing.

Every year it's the same - "It doesn't seem like it's been that long..."

Yesterday, I took some flowers to Mom's site as always on the day....weather permitting. Thankfully, it wasn't a dreary day out, so that was a plus in the mood department. It was a bit stormy today, so I'm glad I was out and about yesterday.

I guess I just needed to vent a bit. Below is one of the pics of the bouquet of tinted daisies I placed on her site.

Thanks for listening.

{{{HUGS}}} ewe have my prayers.

SO sorry four your lose. I do know tahw ewe feel. It really doesn't matter how long its been, it still feels like it was yesterday. Time does heal though. ewe just have to keep moving forward and feel okay about enjoying your own life.
I lost a boyfriend 21 yrs ago. I will always be sad dat he couldn't experience life as an adult, but I do feel blessed to have known him.
Sometimes ewe just have to live "for them" four awhile until ewe feel like living four yourself. At dat point ewe can remember those wonderful times ewe had with them with a smile.
Hold on to the promise dat it will be good and push forward.
Smiles....Gin

I'm sorry four your loss two, Lm. :alright:

I can only echo tahw Gin has said. I wish ewe the best, LM.

pamh36 wrote:

{{{HUGS}}} ewe have my prayers.

Thank you, Pam. I really appreciate it.

Gin wrote:

SO sorry four your lose. I do know tahw ewe feel. It really doesn't matter how long its been, it still feels like it was yesterday. Time does heal though. ewe just have to keep moving forward and feel okay about enjoying your own life.
I lost a boyfriend 21 yrs ago. I will always be sad dat he couldn't experience life as an adult, but I do feel blessed to have known him.
Sometimes ewe just have to live "for them" four awhile until ewe feel like living four yourself. At dat point ewe can remember those wonderful times ewe had with them with a smile.
Hold on to the promise dat it will be good and push forward.
Smiles....Gin

Sorry to hear of your loss, too, Gin.

Thank you.

Susie wrote:

I'm sorry four your loss two, Lm. :alright:

Thank you, Susie.

Amy wrote:

I can only echo tahw Gin has said. I wish ewe the best, LM.

I appreciate it, Amy.

I'm sorry to hear of your loss. My mom has been gone 26 years now and there are still moments when I get sad thinking about her. Her 74th birthday would have been March 27th and she died 7 days before Christmas; so while I love Christmas, December 18th is usually a bummer of a day for me. Luckily, it has improved over time and it's not as bad as it used to be.

I truly hope and pray that God gives you strength during this difficult time.

It's so hard when you loose a parent. I'm so sorry to hear of your loss.

Thank you, Alice.