Anorexic

After months/weeks of struggling, denying that I am, hiding it, etc. I have finally admitted and come to the realization that I am anorexic and need help. Please pray for me in these weeks to come. My hair started falling out recently and I have had a lot of health problems. Need prayers. Thank you.

I am so sorry to hear you are struggling. Like they say, the first step is coming to the realization that you need help. And, that is a huge step. You are in my prayers.

I will be praying for you. I'm glad that you realized you need help.

{{{Julia}}} Coming to that realization is a huge step, and being able to admit that you need help is incredibly brave. You're a strong young woman - much more strong than you realize - and you can conquer this. You aren't alone in it, either. You have your faith, your family, and your friends, and we all love you and are praying for you. And there's a lot of power in faith and prayer. You know that you can PM me any time you need me, sweetie.

Love you!
Savannah

You can do this my dear. You are one of the strongest teens I know.

Hey Sweetie,

First of all I am so proud of you for admitting you have a problem. Next
I am the most proud of you for reaching out for help. You are a brave
young lady and having a positive frame of mind works miracles. I know I
am attest to that, it's what's getting me through my health issues. The
fact that you are opening up and asking for prayer tells me you are
ready to tackle this issue and gain your life back. To re-quote your signature by Audrey Hepburn

"Nothing is impossible, the word itself says 'I'm
possible''.

Good Luck Julia, we're all here for you sweetie.
Lorrie

I'll be praying for you.

* sending you lots of love* Hope things will get better for you.

I'm sorry to hear about this, Julia. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I know you can beat this.

Julia, you will be in my prayers. Thank you for sharing something so personal with us. That took a lot of courage. You are such a beautiful and strong girl, and I know that you will be able to overcome this.

I never would have known. So sorry to hear that. I will pray that you get all the help you need. You deserve it.

Congratulations on being brave enough to admit it and say that you need help.
Praying for you to get thru this.

As Lorrie said above, you are such a brave girl, Julia! My own cousin suffered from anorexia and was years and years denying she had a problem. Her principal trouble with HERSELF was not wanting to go and seek help. She was very proud. If you admits you have a problem and ask for help, you have half of your battle already won. I¡ll be praying for you, my dear.

And how you've realized you are anorexic?

Vanesa.

Thank you all for your loving and caring support. I never dreamed I'd be writing that. But things got bad and it was almost like I had no idea what was going on.

Vanesa wrote:

As Lorrie said above, you are such a brave girl, Julia! My own cousin suffered from anorexia and was years and years denying she had a problem. Her principal trouble with HERSELF was not wanting to go and seek help. She was very proud. If you admits you have a problem and ask for help, you have half of your battle already won. I¡ll be praying for you, my dear.

And how you've realized you are anorexic?

Vanesa.

Miss Vanesa,
How is your cousin now? I hope better!

How'd I realize? Well, ever since 13 I have always struggled with my body image. At 14 I was tempted to starve myself but didn't for just about a week. 15 was really hard for me and I was tempted more and more to starve myself to lose weight fast. I did it sometimes. Like a few days before church so maybe I'd look thinner. For a while I became obsessed with exercising. The week before my 16th birthday party I didn't eat right for a week because I knew I'd be seeing some people I hadn't seen in a long time and I didn't want them to think I was chubby now. Also I'd be eating sweets. So, about early February I got obsessed with losing weight more than ever. I wrote out my own diet and exercise sheet. The diet sheet went something like this....

Breakfast: 50 calorie fruit crisp with water.
Lunch: 3 cheese crackers with tea.
Dinner: Eat in extremely SMALL portions and drink juice.
Dessert: 1 Twizzler
Snack: Blueberries
So, it took a while to stick with that. The exercising was going good but I got obessed with it again though.
I started losing weight. My pants started falling off. My belt wasn't able to be tight enough. I was always looking at calorie and fat content. I ate salads for dinner sometimes. Then last Friday I noticed my eyebrows were falling out. Not drastically but they just were coming out! Then, Saturday a big clump of my hair came out. My parents had noticed when I brushed my hair a LOT of hair would come out. I was starting to get headaches.
Sunday at church during praise and worship I about fainted from standing up so long. I had one of those fruit things for breakfast. Then after church for lunch I had ONE cracker. Then I went for a walk/jog for 45 minutes. We were having a dinner that night at church and the way Mom puts it there were just "dots" on my plate. Even a lady friend of ours noticed how little I was eating. When we got home Mom wanted to talk.
She said she has noticed how pale I have been, circles under my eyes all the time, weakness, dizziness, being sick more often, etc. She said I needed help. I need to EAT. But I told her I get so full after like 3 bites. My stomach has shrunk obviously. That's when I realized. I was doing all those things anorexics do when they start. I have even been tempted to wrap myself in plastic to lose weight by sweating. (Crazy!) So, it's been very hard to eat because I don't want to gain the weight back. So I am trying to eat a lot of healthy things.
Yesterday I splurged and had some pistacho gelato. It was good. But it's really hard so please keep me in your prayers.
I hope I have made sense. I wrote this in a hurry. Haha!
Have a nice day!

When me and my friend was your age..she went threw the same thing has you. I was the chubby one.And my friend was like very small. So i was kind of jelouse of her cause was like tiny...And she thought she was fat..I was thinking she was CRAZY..She used to eat then would make her self throw up..But she NEVER admited she needed help or knew she had a problem.

I'am very proud of you that ur geting help.Hope you get better.

Julia, I'm so sorry you're going through so much. Admitting this is the first step. I hope you can get the help that you need, and I'll be praying for you. (((HUGS)))

Hello, Julia:

My cousin is 40 years old now, and she is a teacher . She is happyli married, so nothing remained of her "anorexic past" . She wouldn't like to speak about her problems but her mother, who worked along with us in RealEstate, did, so I know pretty well how her illness developped. It was not a cas in which the person needs to be imnate in a hospital, but I know she suffered a lot. I don't exactly know what and how she would ate, but I know she always looked very thin and exhausted, with cercles under her eyes. She could eat very little and she feel full , just like you depicted you feel when eating. She used to say that when her mother wanted to force her to eat.Her eyebrows were O.K, but her hair began to come out too and to have headache.

The odd thing is that my cousin didn't want to loss weight. It seems she had psychological issues that killed her wish for eating. She was never hungry. This was her problem.

Hope this could help you just a little!

Vanesa.

It's sad how common this is. And it really is hard to deal with! My Mom is so exasparated with me. It's baaaaad. And now that I know I am going to have to do a dance soon I am really feeling pressured to not eat so I'll look super thin in the outfit.....

Try not to think on your dance...or just go to search psychological help. You need it desperately. Your mother is exapserated with you for she is worried, but this wouldn't help either. Maybe you could speak about this whole problem in your church.

But you need some kind of help. Please, try to find it.

Vanesa.

Vanesa wrote:

Try not to think on your dance...or just go to search psychological help. You need it desperately. Your mother is exapserated with you for she is worried, but this wouldn't help either. Maybe you could speak about this whole problem in your church.

But you need some kind of help. Please, try to find it.

Vanesa.

Great post Vanesa. I've followed this thread with a heavy heart. Miss Julia, be strong and do as she suggests.
I wish you the best dear.

Julia sweetie,

Just remember your mother harps on you because she is worried about you and loves you very much. I bet you don't realize how much your eating disorder is ripping her apart. If you don't listen to your mother, listen to us. You can't do this alone and you should find help, whether it be from your clergy, school, a neighbor or family. Just by opening up to us tells me you are ready to move beyond this but you just aren't sure how. Those urges you are fighting will keep cropping up and I for one don't think I could do it alone.

Know that we are here for you and always willing to give what advice we can and of course our virtual hugs and prayers are wonderful as well. Please at least eat the amount of calories you need to maintain your existing weight. From what you posted a bird can lose weight on that diet. Believe me when I say... I don't look good with a bald head and I am sure you don't want that for yourself.

Stay strong little one... and keep the upper hand.
I'm praying for you my dear,
Lorrie

Julia...you REALLY need to see a doctor with this disorder.....My niece was the same way and it was awful....she hid it, lied about it and nearly died because of it. She finally got help, was in the hospital the last 5-6 months of her senior year in high school, missed out on walking with her class and now deals with this as her every day life.....it is like being an alcoholic, once you are one, you will always be one and have that temptation..... PLEASE....Have your mom take you to a doctor who deals with this...it is nothing to play around with. You are too young to know who Karen Carpenter was, but she was a famous and beautiful singer. She died because of this disease and was WAY too young when she did......PLEASE GET HELP!

Julia, I know you know Karen Carpenter. You have to decide if you want this to become who you are known as, just as Karen is now. She had talent, her music was God given, but people think of her illness too when they hear her name. You don't want that kind of label. Get the guideance of a doctor, you need it and it will change your life for the better.
You are your Mom's only child now, and I know she has dreams for you. Your Grandmother would want you happy and healthy as well. You have taken the first steps just let a doctor guide you on now. Love you peach....