My Mother has Cancer!

I can imagine you are beyond relieved, Marilyn! How *wonderful* of your cousin, too!!! I am so glad and thankful about all of this Marilyn! I am sure you have been losing sleep at night....I can imagine you will sleep WELL tonight!! So happy for you!!!

God's timing is so much better than ours.  If I had rented the first apartment, it would have been on the 5th floor, which is fine with me, it was lovely.  The balcony was tiny but it would have worked.  The apartment that I did rent is on the ground floor and I have my own door to the outside.  I don't have to go into the hallway, just in through my door.  I don't have to wait for elevators and best of all my 4 legged baby will be able to lay outside on the grass as she loves to do here.  She would't have liked a balcony.
My faith has been strengthened all through this cancer journey.  Loosing mom was hard enough but He got me through it and still does.  Learning to live alone has been my worst fear and He is providing.  Wow, why do we doubt??  He is so good to us.

I have been loosing sleep ever since mom found out that she had cancer. After she died it was hard to sleep in a house all by myself. But I am getting used to that too. Yes, tonight will be good. I just have to get off this plaything and go to bed!

Congratulations, Marilyn!! I am so happy for you! I look forward to seeing pictures of your new home.

I'm scared!! I have never lived on my own before. Ok, I've had 7.5 weeks practice so far but I've been in my parents home. On April 8th, I move into my OWN apartment and I'm scared! I have so many doubts and twice as many fears. I don't know if I'll survive. Prayers are still needed.

Always praying, Marilyn.

You continue to be in my prayers and our entire church family is praying for you. I know it will be a tough adjustment, but you can do it, Marilyn.

Great news! Glad you found an apartment. You'll do fine.

This was my mom! The video made me weep, I miss her so much

Hang in there Marilyn...... am praying for you!

That was beautiful Marilyn....thanks for sharing it! I'm praying for you too....we're all here for you.

That was so touching, Marilyn. 

Marilyn, I want you to know something.

Early in my marriage, I worked very hard and was gone a lot. Travelled all over the place. And I was very concerned about Sandy being alone. I finally told her about my thoughts. She looked at me and simply said "No matter what you have to do, I'm with you every step of the way."


I've gone through all of the emotions you have. Fear, loneliness and grief. But the one thing that has gotten me through it, is what she said to me many years ago.

Just remember, that your Mom is with you, EVERY STEP OF THE WAY! Look at this as a new chapter in your life. Because you must remember, that is the way your Mom would want it to be...........

Bless You,
David

Thank you David. You have blessed my heart.

My time in this house is running out. I will be moving in 2 weeks. I am sad about that because it is where my parents lived with me. Now i will be living on my own. Everyone says that it will be exciting but I am afraid. Please continue to pray for me as I finish packing and getting things ready to go. I definitely am more ready to go now than I was at the end of Feb when I was supposed to go. Hopefully things will go ok and I will enjoy my new home.
God is still in control. He won't let me down.

You will be fine Marilyn........PM me if you need anything....I'm here for you....

David

Thanks guys. I appreciate both of you and your friendship.

Prayers would be appreciated this week if you don't mind. I am moving on Friday and am having a hard time dealing with the fact that I am leaving the home that I shared with my parents. I am still grieving over the loss of my mother, the loss of knowledge of my father (he has dementia and doesn't remember much anymore. Although he is still alive, he is hard to visit and talk to because its just not the dad I knew).
Now I have to leave my home that we all shared and live in a new place that I will never see my mother in. That is the hard part for me. I can see her in my memories in this house but she will never be in my new one. I'm afraid. I feel like I'm leaving her behind. I know that it's not true, she left me behind and went to Glory. I know that she is watching me and hopefully is proud of me and how I have survived without her so far. Please pray that I will be happy in the new place and am able to "bloom where I'm going to be planted."

Praying for you, Marilyn.

The love that you have for your mother, and the memories that you carry will bring her into your new home. It won't be completely absent of her presence...She may not have physically stepped into it, but she'll be there in your heart. And I truly believe that she'll be smiling from Heaven as she watches you begin to bloom where you're planted. I'm praying for you, my friend - and I'll be praying up a storm on Friday.

You continue to be in my prayers, Marilyn. Your mom will be watching and smiling down on you feeling so proud as you move into your new home on Friday. Surround yourself with family pictures on your walls to feel even closer to her.

Prayers continue for you, Marilyn.

I know tonight will be your first night in your new place. I pray that you will feel God's loving embrace as you fall asleep tonight, and as you embark on this new journey. I know your mom and dad would want you to find new happiness...that may be too much to hope for right now Marilyn, but it will come in time. Just take it day to day and take comfort from friends and family....keep on putting one foot in front of the other! Hugs and prayers!!!!

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Just take it day to day and take comfort from friends and family....keep on putting one foot in front of the other!  Hugs and prayers!!!!

I don't think there's any better advice than that. We love you, Marilyn.

Oh boy, you guys are so sweet, I have tears in my eyes!
The move went well, I had 13 family and friends helping me, I didn't lift a thing but just directed traffic. We were done in pretty good time and they stayed to help unpack boxes too.  I will post pictures of the new place after I get settled more, I have closets full of boxes, many of them are full of my LHBooks. I can't wait to unpack them, I've missed them!